I went to Room 18 for the first time of my life cos my friend gave me a free tix for a DJ event. 

Frankly I was pretty excited for following reasons: 1. I have never been to Room 18 before but I have heard its kinda cool 2. I didnt go clubbing for a LONG time and 3. its always good to enjoy some music.

So there I was, standing in the dance floor with 2 friends. (  there were supposed to be more people but they canceled in the last minute) 

AND... 

Then I realized there were so many celebrities in this club, well I have worked with some of them and some of them I will be working with pretty soon. Its kinda funny in a way to see those people, I am not sure how to describe it. 

Girls here dressed very HOT, or I should say, there was only a small piece of polyester on the breasts. Yeah I know guys like that... Boys and girls in this club were checking out each other by staring. I suddenly felt.. I didnt belong in this kinda place.

When I was about to leave.. I saw this guy coming in. 

OH GOSH. 

OH GOSH.

He was the guy I had a crush on when I was in my ex ex company. He came for an audition but we didnt sign the contract in the very end. He looked just the same as 2 years ago. 

OH GOSH.

OH GOSH.

AND HE WAS HOLDING A GIRL'S HAND...

OK, thats enough for me.

I decided I wanna take a walk home instead of a taxi.

Maybe this would be my first and last time to go to this club.

PS. Mitch, thanks for the music you played tonight, it was great.

You messaged me this morning saying YOU CANT DO THIS MORE, YOU WANNA KILL YOURSELF. 

Well, you are not  the first one to send me this, I believe you wont be the last one either.

I feel like I am drained....

I dont know how to deal with this anymore. 

Most people around me carry negative emotions recently. 

Hell no, not just negative... 

You come to me for comfort, frankly I am glad I am a good listener to you because sometimes I want you to be my listeners too.

However, I am not a problem slover.

Sometimes you just have to climb on a hill to see things clearly. 

I can only walk you there but you got to open YOUR eyes to see. 

Its a burden to see my good friends suffering from all these, and it hurts me more when I know no matter what I do, the wound inside your heart wont heal.

I am not blaming you for being like this. 

I just wish all of us could be happy. 

If you need my positive power, I could pass them to you anytime, anywhere. 

But please... leave some power to me so I can survive through this. 

Feel like talking to someone...

So I tried to call a few people...

I hate talking to a machine...

However its difficult to write down what I wanna talk about...

Is that why today so many people are suffering from the metal problems?

I just rent 2 dvds to spend the night...

SAW 2

Just Like Heaven

Everytime I rent more than 1 dvd, I would choose a serious one, maybe a horror movie or drama one, then I would pick up a comedy or a YA movie. 

I will start with the easy movie first to relax myself then go for the serious one later on. 

But with the red wine... I dont know if I can make to the second movie tonight... 

Oopss...

Mike, his roommate and Stacey came by my house tonight and we played some Ma jiang. 

I was a totally loser tonight.. they took off around midnight and my boss called so I took care of some business till now.

I should be watching Wang's live game at 4am Taiwan time........

And now its 2am something...........

Should I sleep??

Gosh........

Is the 6 hours worth it?

Find out by yourself..........

http://us.imdb.com/title/tt0346336/

I cried when I watched it by myself in my room. 

SPOILERS...(which made me cry)

1. When Matteo and Nicola found out their father was dead. Matteo sped on the way back to Rome, Giuila yelled at him for its too dangerous to drive this fast. He finally stopped the car and Nicola went to hug him and they both cried. 

2. When Matteo took of his shoes and jumped out of the balcony. 

3. When their mother hold Matteo's books and they fall down. Nicola picked them up and she threw the books away and cried loudly. 

4. When Giorgia finally spoke to Nicola normally. 

5. When their mother showed Vitale Matteo's old photos which she couldnt bear to see them by herself. Vitale said they could see them together. 

6. & 7........................

The World Cup finished last weekend and I have to say it’s not a good ending for me. I am not a BIG Zidane fan but I think he did pretty well in this torment and the red card was completely WHAT THE HELL?? for his last match. There’s one thing made me excited though, a TV Station held a big party in a stadium for the last game, I watched this game with 6 thousand people, most of them got Italy or France flags painting on their faces, arms or clothes. The atmosphere was super!! The amazing part was, due to the time difference, the match started at 2am Taiwan time and finished around 5.30am after the PK. When we walked out of the stadium, we all felt so surreal, the sky was getting bright and it seems like a busy evening 5.30pm instead of 5.30am!!

The saddest thing was Czech team didn’t make to the top 8 or top 4. I almost cried when I watched the Italy VS Czech game, Mike asked me to go to a sports bar and watched the game with a bunch of people. I never tried that before so I said yes and I even asked some other friends to join us. When we arrived the bar, it’s damn full (Taiwanese are crazy about World Cup and I don’t know why……. Soccer is not even a major sport here!) The hostess told me it’s full and we couldn’t get in. However, I saw some foreigners got in just after a couple minutes. The hostess only stopped Taiwanese to get in. I can’t believe this is happening in my own country, racism to our own people?! Anyways, my friends and I left the bar with anger because we missed one third of the game. I also told myself I won’t go back to that bar again.

I had a house party on the night of England VS Portugal. Esme is 1/4 Portuguese and I invited her to my house. She said she could cook for all of my guests, I was happy to hear that because I believe she is a better cook than me. Ha!! So she did and the food was fab!! I myself was the bartender that night; I made my special Vodka Jello cocktails and some other mix drinks. The night went well and when England lost the game we all cheered, well, we kind of forced everyone to support Portugal that night. :p

Ryan Zimmerman stunned the Yankees with a two-run walk-off home run, spoiling what would have been Wang's first career complete-game victory, as the Nationals took the rubber match by a 3-2 final.

"I thought he was very courageous," Joe Torre said. "It's too bad he came out on the short end. He saved our life, and I'm sorry we couldn't help him win this ballgame. ... This kid pitched his heart out, and I feel bad for him; worse than I do for us."

"It's a tough way to lose," Johnny Damon said. "It was so quick and so unexpected."

Wang (7-3) had been efficient and effective through the first eight innings, holding Washington to just one run on four singles. In that span, 16 of his 24 outs came on ground balls, as he pounded the zone with one sinker after another.

Unfortunately for Wang and the Yankees, the final pitch he threw -- also a sinker -- didn't sink, and Zimmerman pounced on it.

"You saw when the pitch was let go that it was high," Torre said. "It was probably the only mistake he made all day."

"I feel bad," said Wang, who threw his glove into the dugout as he walked off the field, showing a rare burst of emotion. "I lost the game."

Zimmerman's heroics made Alex Rodriguez's big day nothing more than a footnote. A-Rod, who has been working on correcting a mechanical flaw in his swing for the past two days with hitting coach Don Mattingly, had snapped a 1-1 tie in the eighth with an RBI double, putting New York in position to win.

"It's a work in progress; I'm working hard with Donnie every morning and taking baby steps," A-Rod said. "It's not going to come overnight, but it's getting better. I'm definitely feeling more comfortable."

Even in the loss, Wang helped his team by giving the bullpen a day off. Mariano Rivera had thrown 2 1/3 innings to go with Scott Proctor's 2 2/3 frames over the past two games, while Kyle Farnsworth has been out since Friday with back spasms.

Both Proctor and Rivera told Torre before the game that they were available to pitch, but the manager opted to stick with Wang in the ninth, as the starter had thrown just 96 pitches through eight innings.

"Where his pitch count was and with the result we were getting, we decided to stay there," Torre said. "You're lacking the one guy you always go in situations like that. We were in position to win the ballgame without Mo; we just didn't get away with it."

Rivera wanted to take the ball in the ninth, but he understood why Torre decided to stick with Wang.

 "I wanted to be there, but it's not up to me," Rivera said. "I'll never second-guess Mr. Torre. If it was up to me, I'd pitch every day. But I look at today and he looks at the season. That's why he's the manager and I'm a pitcher."

Washington's Mike O'Connor matched Wang with seven innings of one-run ball, holding the high-powered Yankees offense to just four hits in the no-decision.

"It's those young guys we've never seen before that tend to give us trouble," said Damon, who went 0-for-5. "It seems like we'd rather face Cy Young Award winners."

The Nationals struck first with a run in the fifth, as Brendan Harris singled in Zimmerman. New York tied the game in the next inning, as Derek Jeter doubled, moved to third on a wild pitch and scored on Jorge Posada's sacrifice fly.

Gary Majewski (3-2) opened the eighth for the Nats by walking Melky Cabrera, but the right-hander followed with strikeouts of Jeter and Jason Giambi. That brought Rodriguez to the plate, and he drilled the first pitch to deep left-center, scoring Cabrera all the way from first.

A-Rod, who was 7-for-45 in June after Friday's game, went 2-for-2 with a pair of walks on Sunday, his second straight multi-hit game. Rodriguez also had two hits on Saturday, including a two-run home run to center.

"The last two days, he's been so different than he's been this month," Torre said. "You don't hold your breath and hope that something good happens for him now. He's back."

Wang retired the side in order in five of the first seven innings, working quickly and efficiently. Wang went out for the eighth and walked Harris to start the inning.

Marlon Byrd bunted Harris to second, but Wang retired Brian Schneider for the second out. After walking Alfonso Soriano, Wang got Jose Vidro to fly out to left, where Cabrera ran down the ball, making a nice catch to preserve the lead.

Unfortunately for Wang and the Yankees, he was unable to close the deal, losing for the first time since May 22, a span of five starts.

"It was great when we didn't see Rivera out there in the ninth," Vidro said. "We were like, 'Oh, man, we have a very good chance.'"

Wang took a 2-1 lead into the ninth, as the Yankees looked to the right-hander to give the weary bullpen a full day of rest. He retired the first batter in the inning, but after pinch-hitter Marlon Anderson singled through the hole between first and second, Zimmerman drilled the first pitch he saw over the wall in left field, ending the game with one swing.

"He was good all day, keeping the ball down and using his sinker," Zimmerman said. "He left one up [and] I caught it good enough to get it out. It felt good. I knew I got it good enough once I hit it."

"As well as he pitched," Jeter said, "he deserves to get something for it."

I finished watching the whole 24 episodes in 6 days. 

And this guy totally made me go nuts!! 

I've always like a guy with a great smile, and he does have one. 

More that that, the loneliness and pain in his eyes is just too much for me, how can any girl resist that?! 

His voice is also pleasing to hear, he could be strong when he needs to protect someone he loves. 

The saddest thing is  he can give up the reputation, fame and wealth for the girl and let her go to someone she truly loves, even it breaks his heart like hell. 

Anyways, its a role in this story......... and I am imagining I would have someone who loves me so much.................... 

I feel kinda silly to feel sad for this.......... but still.......... I am sad.

 

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